When the personal challenge puts you on the Path
Well … I’m pulling a DEEP breath and I’m writing an article for you today on a subject I never imagined I’d have the courage to make public. I feel liberation and fear at the same time, I know it will bring oh nooo and oh yesss reactions … but here I am, owning my Truth and staring to write!
Today I am writing to you about me and my life story and I am also telling you what determined me to write what I write.
Maybe you have already perceived my emanation and energy, many of you know me personally, some of you know me from the internet … what I can tell you is that I was and am an explorer. I have always been curious, rebellious and …. for a long time …. hidden. I have lived a double, triple, multiple life or whatever you want to label it. I went with my curious spirit to areas where I was not “allowed” to go, or where, although many people go, it is not allowed to explore things honestly and openly. I entered the world of relationships at the age of 18/19 and I know how shocked I was, since then, how people said one thing and did another. And many do that even now. I did too. I chose to end the inner and outer duality, but my process of completion did not happen fast. I chose to live experiences, good and bad, to step full on in mysterious and erotic territories and taboo subjects. And I paid heavily the price of my curiosity. I went through complete resets, through divorce, through relocation, through separations, through “baths” of judgments and stones. I will not go into frothy details now and maybe never, because I understood that it is a sign of respect for those who have been with me in my evolution and in my past to honor the concept of privacy. What I can say is that I paid a huge price for my innate curiosity and free spirit.
Why am I writing this article now … and what inspired me to write it?
I think it will soon be a year since I officially launched the courses and consultations on Astrology. I could never describe in words how wonderful my clients are. I am at least blessed to have such people fulfilling my social role on Earth. For some time I noticed certain topics that my clients were launching and, although I could not tell my personal story in the sessions with them, I totally understood what they were going through. After certain themes became repetitive, I felt this inner … and outer calling to express myself publicly. Yes, you magnetic ones, I lived similarly. Yes, you curious ones, I lived similarly. Yes, you free ones, I have lived similarly. Deep experiences bring us together. I wanted you to know that officially. From me. For you.
This year I had a new experience, for which I want to thank my friend, Ana-Maria. She asked me if I could do a certain type of massage for her, because she wanted to live this experience. I calmly answered yes … and later realized what a profound healing this yes brought. For those familiar with the Gene Keys, I have 40.5 in Attraction, and for those familiar with Astrology, I have Earth, Pluto and the Moon in Scorpio, Venus op. Pluto and some dominant planets in house This year I had a new experience, for which I want to thank my friend, Ana-Maria. He asked me if I could do a certain type of massage for him, because he wanted to live this experience. I calmly answered yes … and later realized what a profound healing this yes brought. For those familiar with the Eyelash Keys, I have 40.5 in Attraction, and for those familiar with Astro, I have Earth, Pluto and the Moon in Scorpio, Venus op. Pluto and niscavai dominant planets in 8th House. Sometimes my magnetism only brought me trouble. So is the sexual load that gathers all sorts of external projections. The topic of exploring intimacy was paramount to me, although I had no outside guidance and had to learn everything step by step … and with difficulty … and with shame and guilt. And now I realize that what I experienced, receiving stones directly in my head and the load I felt I carried, I did not live in vain. My preoccupation with this subject has settled amazingly in the last two years and now what I have lived and managed to assimilate, I can bring with light and love for other people. I feel a deep emotion, even now, when I type.
Thank you for life and thank you, those who woke me up and brought me closer to my inner calling. My deep healing has happened with you and the fruits of my knowledge and experience I bring forward for you. And I thank those who helped me, being in my life, past or present, to be who I am now. After years of searching and integrating, I reached a point of peace and reconciliation with my totality. I feel seen, understood and loved and I am deeply honored to live this in my existence.
As of today, I officially announce that I am here, present and total, to talk and be with you on the road through taboo topics. For the most part, I lived them. I guarantee that I can understand your journey and I will launch with total love dedicated sessions to the work on the theme of sexuality, the power of intimacy, the opening of honest work with the parts we keep under the rug. I know how much I needed guidance and understanding … I hope I can offer it to you.
I know how much I needed real friends and authentic guides. If I can be a light that guides you to your authenticity, I am here, dear ones! I learned to respect privacy and honor, although the road was not easy. And I’m still learning … every day! From me, from life, from you! Thank you all!
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